This subject hit me yesterday with the words, “tackle it” whispered into my head. To be honest, I don’t feel completely equipped to move forth with such a complex endeavor but here I am all the same trusting that the words will come forth and the message will be delivered as it is supposed to be.
You see, it’s been a difficult year personally. Loss, struggle and frustration with the universe in general mixed in with what should be a joyous time in life. It has stonewalled me personally and frozen me in progress that I thought I had made over the years. I have stood still in that time and questioned again the purpose of it – the why?
I have been blessed through some of the difficulties in my own life with some amazing experiences to help me believe that there is more to life than what we can touch and feel, much more. but that doesn’t always prove to be enough to pull you through the darkest of days. So what does? What is the little beating pulse of life that somehow pulls us through when we feel as if we can’t anymore? What helps us breathe through one more moment until it becomes another hour, another day, a week, a month, a year?
To be completely honest, it’s been a challenge and when I say “keeping the faith” I refer not only to whom you believe from a religious aspect but also faith that things will change, that life will continue, that hope exists, etc., etc., etc. For myself, it’s a mixed bag and it’s changed over time. I have been all over and after losing my son literally, yes, literally told God in his heaven to ” F-off ” while crying in my shower. I’m sure that would provoke a gasp from some, but I know He knows that while I meant it at the time (I can’t lie and say that I didn’t), that I needed to get it out and that He has big shoulders – it’s all good. I still occasionally “salute” the universe as a whole on really bad days at the collective amount of crap that’s been loaded on my plate over the last 26 years or so, but I keep going. Somehow, I keep going.
In our paths of good and bad, even when the bad is outweighing the good so heavily that it feels as if we will never get from out from under it, how do we keep going? In this last year, I’ve honestly reexamined that a lot. While not everyone does and that is scary and sad, the vast majority do. How exactly do they “keep the faith” and what does that mean exactly?
The only truthful answer that I can come up with is Love. It brings tears to my own eyes as I write it – the simplicity of it all. It is everything. No matter who it is for, where or to whom it is directed to or from, it is the light, it is the beat within all of us that spurs us forward. It is the gift we were given that is intangible and immeasurable. The force of it can do anything yet, cannot be bought or sold, it simply exists.
If something as simple as love is enough to push one through the most awful experiences of our lives, if its force is enough to somehow help us believe that we can get though another day, if the love for another person is enough to keep us here and living when we don’t want to be – how could anything be more powerful than that? How could we not believe that there is more to all that we experience than what we can touch and see?
It would seem that the subject isn’t so complex after all.
Keep the Faith – Love one another.
